while rushing my video essay out, I was glad I saw this!
so beautiful :DDD

This is creeeeeepy but both my previous blogs "died" on February 9 in 2010, and 2011 respectively hahahhaha a new blog because I really needed to put some stuff down :D

(pardon words spammage)

I’m finally writing this as a conclusion to this semester’s end of Soul Funky sessions. You probably can’t imagine how it has been for me this entire journey, from the audition all the way to the internal battle. I’m still amazed at how things turned out. XD

Things really changed after my summer school experience… it may not have been drastic but somehow, something in me changed a little ^O^

I became a little stronger, a little more independent and really… hmm, I just sort of grew a little. Even though it’s little, this amount of “little” was enough for me this time round.

I never knew my interest or love for locking would have gone such a long way. I always enjoyed watching people dance but didn’t dare to try because I’m awkward and slow booo but somehow after summer school, I just wanted to try. I told myself that if I really wanted to learn locking, I should and that even if I fail, I would know I have tried. And, as long as I have fun, who cares about how it would turn out.

I would never have gone for the audition, alone.

I would never have gone for the audition, with no dance background.

I would never have gone for the audition, with a fever.

But I did.

I really really really wanted to learn locking THAT badly haha I can’t believe it either ._. Thank God that the timing was just right so I went ahead! Of course, I have to thank CHEW who really encouraged me to take this little step forward and helped me whenever I get stuck! ^O^

I was so scared… because first of all, I didn’t know how to lock.. how to go for audition like that alamak! Then, I was scared because I always hated to be alone………….. and going for the audition alone wasn’t going to be very fun brr. Then, came the unexpected fever on the day itself which just made me felt so horrible but luckily I felt worse the next day HAHA I did forget about being sick when I learned the steps and tried to catch up! My uncle also passed away that day and I received the sms during the audition but since I was feeling so sick, I was kind of numb.

Then came the actual sessions! I was so eggcited, I still am, for every training! But unfortunately I can’t make it in time for most of the popping classes so ._______. booo

Although I am always looking forward to sessions, I was dreading it too but I dragged myself there because I really wanted to learn. I had this dread because I didn’t know anyone at first and everyone seemed to have their OGs since they went for camp and I didn’t know who to talk to, who to share my random outbursts with, who to ask for help… And I always assumed that everyone will always come for every session but then I realized it wasn’t the case so it was also scary when I didn’t see familiar faces. BERRY SCARED LAH ME, ALMOST RAN AWAY. But then I know that if I wanted to learn, I CANNOT RUN AWAY. So, I went for all the sessions except those I cmi, then going for boggle training after that too. Super tiring but super fun!

Then slowly, I made more friends and so now it’s not that scary anymore haha! Oh, and I realized that if you really really focus, then not so scary anymore! ^^

Another thing I dread every session was the rhythm exercises because…. I CANNOT FOLLOW THE UP BOUNCE. *emoes at one corner* Then everyone else seems to be pretty fine, sigh. It’s better now but I still can’t fully relax/get it yet BUT I’m just gonna keep trying, just keep trying hehe! Then all the steps came along and I can’t always catch up but I know practice and more practice will help so I very chill yo, never cry this time because I believe that I can do it, I just need to keep practicing!!!!!! Rhythm is SOOOO important, I think it’s the very essence of locking so I feel quite bad not getting it right RAWR.

Another thing about me is that I am very determined(or can say stubborn hahahahaha) to get my basics right but I still haven’t got all of them right haha oops! I am very particular about the details but it seems to me at this point in time… when I am too particular about it, it distracts me from dancing and when I really enjoy the dance, I don’t get all the details booooo. And so, I have finally decided that although I should focus on the basics, when I dance, I should just dance and not care about it because if I have practiced enough, somehow without thinking or being deliberate, the basics should still be solid yooooo!

WE WON THE JUNIOR CREW BATTLE YAY!

FUNKY FUCHSIA FTW!

We didn’t expect to win but I think that the strong dancers really helped us a lot especially since we didn’t have enough choreographies and a really small crew. The day before the internal battle, we had 4 people who turned up for practice and then out of the 4… only 3 turned up so the other 3 really picked it up on the day itself really quickly although we had other practices too! I’m not a fast learner so I really needed all the practice I could get to internalize, clean up and remember the steps but unfortunately due to the lack of time, the choreos weren’t perfect and it definitely could have been better… NEXT TIME NEXT TIME ;D with more funky fuchsians hopefully too ^~^ So, I shall promise to train more, and have more fun and learn more of popping too! (zomg when it was popping songs, luckily a lot of our crew could pop freely! But I can’t :’( hahah next time next time, I will try!)

We just wanted to put up an entertaining battle/ remember as much as we could because it’s a form of respect to the rest/preserve Funky Fuchsia’s dignity so we were so relieved when it was over :D When they announced that we won, we kind of stoned. HAHHAHAHAHAH and screamed, and screamed … and screamed LOL

Reiterating again, mastering fear is not about having no fears but it is about facing up to them. It has never been about the absence of fear. Everyone has fears but those who face it with true courage are the people who will learn to be less afraid, the people who will grow in the process. Fears can never be conquered but to have the courage to carry on, despite having the fear, is a skill we all have to learn. This was the best example of how I got over those fears I had a little by little. I’m still scared you know but just less scared. I’m contented with it. I’m contented with learning little by little, bit by bit because at least, I’m learning and growing at the pace I am comfortable with! ^^

I'm so glad I met so many funky and fun people whee~ and yep no enough no enough, I want mawr kekeke

From the audition, to random classes I took, to the sessions, to randomly dancing and teaching peeps how to lock at liang court after all the shops closed and telling people and making people fall in love with locking to crying with Huisi randomly in front of e.a.t at clarke quay because we talked about locking to the battle.... it's been a long way but there's still a long way to go :)

Because I wrote this in a word doc since I have no internet, it has no pictures either WAHAHAHHA

~(^^)~ armwaveemoticonIlikeberrymuch.

my knees are bruised and I am burning up but I'm still very happy, so happy I need to shout it out loud!!!!